wednesday.

it felt like fall to me this morning...not in a physical realm...as it is hot like the mid-summer, but somewhere deep inside there was that quiet. it brought to mind mudjekeewis, and a still peace, and answered a question i've been carrying.


a safe transit to work.


sangeeta's smile, and...taipelehkastocha? [forgive my misspelling]


jenn's text message and garden declaration of faith and blessing.


the gentle souls who check in with my blog daily.


that man at the salvage yard who was nice and helpful on the phone.


my mother who is quick to check in on me and offer encouragement [and knows just when i need it].


the wisdom of tonglen, and the peace, i am so thankful to receive.


the mystery and beauty of sacred geometry.


toddsmilingbuddha's encouraging e-mail.


that i have an insulin pump.


that, in spite of the setbacks, i am not that far behind at work.



that i was able to see my leetle car, lung ta, for the last time today when i went to get the tag.


for bob at the auto body shop...for his big, bear-like presence which, coupled with his happy, compassionate spirit made such a painful moment, oddly, full of joy...his "look, your car looks bad...but it did its job...you're alive" frankness and tender care, and his humour "you're in the bull pen, up to see the adjustor next"..."can i get you some water or something?" was so, so kind and considerate.


that my insurance adjustor just happened to be on site this afternoon, expediting my claim.


that the insurance adjustor settled my case with a remarkable return [truly a miracle].


that i have such a corp cadre of friends to whom i can send cryptic, random, spontaneous text messages: 'please pray, now'...and they'll know exactly what i mean.


that my insurance adjustor was kind.


that when it was time for me to leave, bob met me at the door and said, "can i give you hug?" and did with such a fatherly gesture.


that my rental car has been extended for one more week.

that my dear le-lu got into the art school of her choice...made my heart glad.

that i can sit quietly and know that what comes next will be for my best life.

that sometimes we have those distinct moments where we are granted the perspective that makes us thankful for the path we did -not- take...and instead of sorrow, or frustration at what has turned out to be painful is a sigh of relief for what was really a gracious, life-saving turn of events in retrospect...[and still i will be grateful for the good that was shared...i will speak blessings to you...and will sift the wheat from the chaff]